Review: Is This A Cry For Help by Emily Austin

 

DNF at 40%.

I could not continue this whiplash. I was expecting some big drama surrounding the ex but finding out that she broke up with him 10 years ago, and that she blames herself for it seems very selfish in my opinion. She also blames this for her mental breakdown... which I question.

This also gave me the ick when she was talking about the baby's missing fingers and that the baby wouldn't be able to flip anyone off with her left hand and that she wont be able to wear a wedding ring if she was into that sort of thing when she is older. The fact that she only thought of those things, and not what she will probably go through as a child and possible bullying, shows that Darcy is not a good character and that she has no compassion for the things that truly matter.

Also her theory on the porn and censorship and what she would do as head honcho would be a complete overhaul. But Darcy, during your mental breakdown, you were offered a management position in the library and you turned it down.

I truly do not understand darcy as a character.

Review: Trust by Hernan Diaz

 

I have had this book on my radar since it came out and I found a copy at Goodwill a year ago. I picked this up this month because it fulfills two Goodreads reading challenges for the spring. When I read the synopsis, I was confused because it says the first story is based on a book about a character in this. So I start thinking that this is a nonfiction and I do some research. 

I had to wrap my head around the fact that the author created a fake book to be able to advance this story and Bonds is not a real book. So Bonds the "book" is about a guy named Benjamin Rask. He is an only child living in New York with his parents who are socialites and big wigs. Benjamin is great with math and he becomes a stock trader or something like that, I kept thinking of him as a day trader.

He becomes filthy rich and he gets marries to a woman named Helen. Helen has just come back from Europe with her parents and she finds that she is the perfect fit for Benjamin because he keeps to himself and only makes appearances in public to keep his status up. Helen then becomes ill and it is similar to what ailment her father had, and she goes back to Europe to the sanitorium that her and her mom put him in.

The second story in this book is the"real" Bejamin Rask. His name is Arthur Bevel and it is basically a retelling of the first story Bonds, except names weere changed and the attitude towards family and social events were totally different.

The third story is about Arthur told through the eyes of a woman named Ida and he is trying to clear his and his wife's name from a defamatory book called Bonds by Harold Vanner. Bevel hires Ida to takes his dictation so she can write his autobiography. The whole time while reading this, I got Donald Trump vibes and it gave me the ick. We also get Ida's life story and how she is the daughter who an anarchist Italian immigrant father who tells stories and maybe embellish some to make himself sound tough. He gets angry when something doesn't go his way. 

Ida eventually gets an apartment from Bevel because he wants her to be close so they can finish the book. He dies of a heart attack before that and we also get future timeline of Ida as an older woman and she is finally able to learn more about Arthur's wife Mildred. She learns that he has narrated her completely wrong and he took all the credit for her ideas. While Ida is looking through all the paperwork that has become available since the estate of the Bevel's became a museum. Ida finds a hidden diary of Mildred's and she takes it.

The fourth and final story is the diary. It is very chaotic and it is her thoughts and routine during her stay in the sanitorium in Europe. She is dealing with cancer and it is her final thoughts. She also puts down that she told Arthur how to beat the ticker tape and he eventually does it making him an enormous fortune and she calles him a criminal and they don't talk for two years. That was surprising because throughout the book, we are led to believe that they were close and didn't have any qualms. 

It shows that trust was not there in the marriage and it makes the reader question, can we really trust the government and the federal reserves and the stock markets. 

Review: The Poet Empress by Shen Tao

 

I love Asian fantasy and I almost always give them 4 or 5 stars and this was no exception. I picked this up thanks to the spring goodreads challenge and I liked it. Throughout the book, it was a three star and I was kind of getting over the repetitive narrative of Terren being awful and a monster and that the royals were out the get each other and our main character Wei being so disbelieving of the betrayals.

The book starts out with Wei being with her family while they bury her little sister who has died from the famine that is decimating the nation. Wei is hopeful for blessings to come to her local village from one of the princes that is supposed to come to the festival. They go to the town and they are looked down upon because of how they are dressed and how they smell.

One of the princes does in fact show up, and it is Prince Isan who has the magic of growing fruit instantly. He also tosses out blessings, and Wei's little brother Bao catches two. The prince then informs the citizens that he second brother has been named Heir and he is looking to fill his inner court with concubines. Wei is instantly interested because she wants to take care of her village. She goes back and everyone starts giving her prized possessions for her offering basket. The day of the selections, the eunuch that is part of the inner court has to choose one girl. He chooses a girl that made fun of Wei and her family. Wei immediately begs for a chance in front of everyone which is seen as embarassment in the villagers eye, but it is desperation to keep her village fed.

Wei is also chosen because the eunuch can have a good laugh. She is then placed with hundreds of other girls and taught how to please her prince and use techniques to get planted with seal bearing sons. On the day of the selection process, a girl in front of her in line attempts to kill Prince Terren. Then Wei is up next and she is the first that Terren officially gives a title too and he names her his empress.

From then she is constantly being betrayed by the other concubines, she is being blackmailed by the current empress and being tortured nightly by Terren. She eventually learns that the only way to kill Terren is through a heart poem because he has a magic ward around him that makes him impossible to kill.

She then has to gether stories from old advisors and she commits treason and learns how to read because in this world, women being literate is treasonous. It gets kind of repetitive after a while but the ending was shocking and it made me cry. 

Review: Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid

 

Thanks to the Goodreads spring reading challenge, I had to pick this one up. I was not expecting to read this one so soon, but I did finish it in three days. 

It was also very easy to read because I could picture the actors as their characters. Everyone knows what Heated Rivalry is. It is about two hockey players named Shane and Illya. They start their hockey careers at the same time and this starts their rivalry in the media because they are both head to head for first round draft pick.

Ilya is a Russian hockey player who was chosen as first round draft pick and Shane was drafted second. They are also drafted to rival teams which is another boost to the rivalry.

Throughout their careers, the rivalry is still going strong and they hate each other. But behind closed doors, they are railing each other whenever their teams play each other. Ilya is comfortable with his sexuality and he is bi. Shane, throughout the whole book is paranoid that they will be found out and he is constantly wanting to end the relationship. He even starts dating a actress who eventually asks him does he like women and he tells her that its a complication. They even bring up square peg in round hole, and then he compares it to himself that he likes to be the hole rather than the peg and I died laughing.

Ilya is also dealing with family issues back in Russia. He can't come out in Russia because it is illegal and his father is a important minister who is dealing with Alzheimers. Ilya's brother is constantly asking him for money. Once his father dies, he doesn't go back and he can be safe from persecution. 

Shane and Ilya start to get closer in the feelings department and one summer, Ilya goes to Shane's summer house for two weeks. This is the first time they have been together during the summer, and then one day Shane's dad shows up. They end up coming out to him and his mother and they also help with Ilya start the process to become a Canadian citizen. 

I also read the novella between this book and the next book. I am starting to lean more towards watching the show.